Sunday, November 23, 2008

Life! What For?

“So, What do you think is the purpose of life?”

“Huh” I blurted out. What kind of question was that I thought.

“What do you think you were born for?”

“I am a computer engineer.”

“So, do you think you were born to become an engineer. What I mean to ask is that if you are successful in computer engineering then your life is complete and you are satisfied? Can you spend your life writing programs? ”

“Can’t say that. Engineering is just a way of getting me the knowledge to become successful, earn enough money and have a successful life.”

“So becoming successful is the purpose of your life?”

“Yes definitely.”

“For the purpose of conversation, let me ask you this, If you die after you become successful then you will have no regrets?”

“Hmmm, if you put it that way then no, once my family has that kind of security then, (s you bluntly put) I can die.”

“So you want to live for your family.”

“Yes.”

“Tell me one thing then, when you were born, did you know that you were going to be a computer engineer and then that you will have a family and you have to be successful for you family to be secure after you.”

“No, of course not. They come as you get older.”

“So don’t you think goals or purpose or responsibilities are much better words to explain these things.”

Oh man … me and my big mouth.

“Yes they definitely are better words.”

“So I ask you again, let me rephrase it to you. Do you think there is something you have to do for which you were born. Something that makes your life meaningful. Don’t you think so, that otherwise your life would be like any other individual just born lived and died.?”

(She actually makes sense.)

“So you think that everyone here was born to do something, something with a purpose.”

“Well, Don’t you think so?”

“Well yes… but..”

“So what do you think is your purpose of life? What I’m asking is what is your destiny?” She asked with a smile.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

GOD?

“Why?” She asked, “If you don’t mind might I ask you a personal question?” “Yes” I said, “Go ahead.”

“Do you believe in God?”

I became skeptical, as I was expecting something else. “Come on, in this world of today!! Where man is breaking down nuclei to find out what it is made up of and sending up probes to mars to find out if there is life on it. Seventy five years ago Hubble proved that the universes were as a result of the Big Bang and not some divine creation. As an engineer I am afraid my answer to this is a no.”

“So you have no belief in God.”

“I guess not.”

“So you are telling me you have not taken God’s name or rather God has not helped you in any way.”

“Of course what I am today is because of what I have done and not because God had planned it for me.”

“Can I ask you something else? Have you ever done something unbelievable which you thought you would never be able to do or have you ever seen somebody do anything unbelievable?”

“Like in the movies??”

“No not like in movies, Most of them are setup or special effects. More like in reality shows, where people perform unbelievable stunts.”

“Hmm well I am a fan of reality shows and the stunts they show on that channel are quite questionable and I always thought how they did it.”

“And what about you, what do you do when you want to get by something, let’s say a deadline.”

“Well I had faith in myself. I said to myself that I could do it and I did it. But it wasn’t like god told me.”

“So you mean to say that a little voice inside you helped you.”

“Well you can put it that way.”

“What do you think that people who do things, think about when they do it.”

“They must be asking God to take care of them when they do things unexplainable.”

“But god is not there right?? So how do they do those things?”

“Well they have faith in god. The GOD they believe in of course.”

“So why do you think GOD is another being or a supernatural entity. Why can’t God be the thought itself. You believe in yourself or your potential to get by things. People believe in God. So do you see something similar.”

“You mean to say that God is faith.”

“Why couldn’t faith be God. Previously when unexplainable things happened people attributed them to be actions of God, and that concept has been passed on from generation to generation, however most of the things are today explainable by science. Still there are some things, like heroic actions of people and origin of thought itself for example, that are unexplainable by science. In those situations the only thing that gets us by is faith, may it be in itself or any other entity or rather God. It’s only a matter a perception that people have. Don’t you think so?”


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Thought I would merge this one with my other blog..

Monday, September 22, 2008

Yaadon Mein!

Pehle sirf khamooshion mein tumhari yaad aati thi,
Aaj kal har pal khaamoshi chaayi rehti hai.
Akele rehte to shaayad mar bhi jaate,
Par tanhaaion mein bhi tumhaari yaad satati rehti hai.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Dost !!

Baantte the tum khushi jo har kadam..
Gam mein apne, humein yoon na bhool jao,
Itni bhi dosti mat nibhao yaar humse..
Ki hasake humein, tum khud hasna bhool jao !

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Monday, May 05, 2008

Life!!


Yeh Zindagi bhi kitni Ajeeb Hai..
Kabhi khushi deti hai to kabhi gam,
Chalte rehte hain Hum kiski talash mein?..
Kabhi saath mein kisike, to kabhi akele hum!


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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Sometimes..

- Maverick


Sometimes life seems to be slowing down,
When days seem dull with no joy or fun..
Sometimes days seem to be flying by,
And it looks like you have missed your turn..

Then there is that unanswered question,
You can seem to get past it..
But you just let go and carry on,
'Cause all You can do is get used to it..

Sometimes friends leave,
Sometimes love is lost..
You heart feels heavy,
Like a dark spell is cast..

Everything changes from there on,
And you cant seem to forget it..
But You wipe your tears and carry on,
'Cause all You can do is just get used to it..

One moment you are flying high,
When sometimes without reason..
The next moment you fall to the pavement,
Your wings break and it hurts a ton..

It feels like you can make it on your own,
And you will not get over it..
But you just pick yourself up and carry on,
'Cause all you can do is get used to it..

Sometimes you cant see whats ahead,
Your hearts filled with this binding unrest..
Where you are going seems so unknown,
Whats next is but only a guess..

But you pick a way and carry on,
'Cause all you can do is just get used to it..

Sometimes... Sometimes..

Aashiq..

Uski yaad tadpati hain har roz,
Hum jise kal apna bana na sake..
Ab Kal maut bhi aaye to hamein gila nahi,
Jaayenge woh naam leke, jiski yaad mein jee na sake.


Aye Ishq ko naadan samajh kar hasne wale,
Kabhi gaur kar ik aashiq ke afsaane gam ke..
Dard-e-mohabbat mein jo sukoon milta hai hamein,
Kabhi aake dekh is gali mein deewana banke..


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Sunday, January 20, 2008

Zindagi....

Arz Kiya Hai...

Hasta hua chehra to bas hamari duniyadaari hai,
Aansoon bahate rahe hum tanhaayion mein..
Dhoondhte jawabon ki roshni, zindagi bhar ek taraf,
Aur Ek taraf kaate raaste, sawaalon ki parchaayion mein..



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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

How did I Celebrate my New Year!!


I always wondered what is the best way to celebrate the coming of a "New Year" and I never got a definite answer. I have yet to actually celebrate the coming of a new year. Usually I used to watch TV watching the world around partying all night like crazy, counting down to the last second of the passing year and shouting their hearts out as clock strikes 12. Sadly my cable was out this week and I was deprived of my yearly tradition.

But I think this was my best last day of the year yet. Why? Because the events of the day couldn't have been any better for me! I woke up at 10:30, and after the usual morning routine reached office at about 12 (yeah, I know). My team was already there celebrating by playing a game of counter-strike. I joined in and we altogether enjoyed brutally shooting each other in the head for about 2 hours, after which it was time for lunch.
Lunch was a bit mellow with chitchat over office food about what we did over the weekend and how and if we had made any plans for the night. After lunch we continued with the game for about another 2 hours(and you think we actually worked, :D).

Finally something I had been waiting for about two weeks. Two of my best friends who had gone to the US were visiting and had come to meet. So I immediately left the game and went down to our local snacks restaurant for an evening of getting updated on whats been going on in everybody's life, teasing each other on various topics, serious discussions on the future and its prospects. Time flew, literally. We talked for about four and half hours, after which I went back to my office, and not so surprisingly found it empty. It was 3 hours till midnight. So I started going through my huge collection of pictures to actually see what amount of fun I had in the last year. I found lots of friends, lots of creations, and lots of puzzles we used to play with. It brought back all the nostalgic moments. I began uploading all the photos and it took me almost an hour.

Finally I went home. My brother had just come back from bombay, so we decided we would check out the night life on the last day and celebrate my brothers last day as a bachelor. So we took the car, with my brother driving at full speed over the flyovers, overtaking almost everybody. When we reached the happening places, we just cruised through watching all the glitter and noise. My brother got tired and we raced back home and we were back 15 mins before midnight. On the way we stopped at Mc Donalds for a midnight snack, and i took just a plain vanilla cone.

Back home still eating the cone, I messaged everybody wishing them a new year, tried to call a close friend of mine, whose mobile was sadly switched off. It was almost midnight and it all came down to standing in my balcony eating vanilla ice-cream hearing the sounds of the new year arriving with booms and bangs.

10 mins later I was fast asleep. Nice way to celebrate the new years, dont u think?


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Wishing you a Convoluting in terms of happiness, Randomised in terms of surprises, Filtering in terms of sorrows, and Compunding in terms of prosperity and a very New as in never before experienced New Year!


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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Tanhaayee!!

Bekas ek Taara tha..
Aur yeh beintehaan aasmaan,
Dar lagta hai kahin woh meri tarah,
Kho na jaaye apni tanhaayee mein!!

Hum gum seh to lete hain,
Sirf yeh gum na hota to,
Hum dard seh to lete hain,
Sirf yeh dard na hota to..



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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Dil Se..

Aankhon mein tassawur na ho,
To sirf rangon se tasweer nahi banti..
Dil mein use paane ka jazbah chahiye,
Sirf Khwahishon se taqdeer nahi banti.


Bheed mein chalte the hum bhi,
Par akele rehne ki aadat si ho gayi hai..
Baatein banate the hum bhi hazaaron,
Par un baaton mein khaamosh rehne ki aadat si ho gayi hai.


Siskiyan leti hai dhadkan hamari, Ek nazar mil jaaye to,
Jaam kya zeher bhi peelenge, Un hoton se pila de to..
Zameen aasman kya, poori kaynaat rakh denge kadmon pe unke,
Sirf sharma ke ek baar woh humein apna bulaye to.




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Sunday, October 28, 2007

Who Am I?

Maverick means independent in thought and action(more on the rebellious side though..), and thus i think of myself as different from everybody. I am unique, and i think everybody is unique in their own terms, but it does not end there. Life is a paradox, always ends in contradiction. So it wouldn't be a total lie when i say people are unique and yet similar to others.

People are not born alone, they are born into a society. What they inherit is a cumulative effect of the years they spend with their family, their friends. What you have is what you inherit from others, how you use them is what makes you unique. After all, it is our choices, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.

But then its not good to forget where you got those abilities. I am always envious of others even the best of my friends, because you always find some admirable qualities which I want in me. And thus I am an anamoly made from others with something of my own, the only thing i claim as my own is that i am an observer, an eternal student.

I have compiled a list of friends that make me. Those who know me try to find themselves, those who think they are not on the list, it means I still haven't found the right word to describe what i have learned from guys and i apologize for that.Trust me I will update it as soon as possible. And guys don't mind :). So here goes.

1. The down to earth debugger.
2. The one with happy thoughts.
3. The smooth talker.
4. The planned one who people think is lucky.
5. The silent one.
6. The graceful dancer.
7. The happy go lucky but serious.
8. The strong one who is working towards a purpose.
9. The outgoing one.
10.The stylish, who is as confused as i am, probably.
11.The mind your own business one.
12.The one with the business mind.
13.The go to guy (in my line of work).
14.The one that never gives up, never outspoken.
15.The fragile but diligent one.
16.The one who likes the moon.
17.The new kid.

I still have to learn from the last four.

If you think you have learned something from me, i am glad, i could be of use.



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Sunday, September 23, 2007

Love Hurts..

Arz kiya hai....

Roka na tha jab,
To hum izhaar na kar sake,
Aur jab iqraar karne chale,
To hum bewaqt ho gaye..

Ishq kiya ji jaan se,
Par aisa zaraar diya,
Dhoka diya unhone,
Aur hamein bewafaa karaar diya.

Asir banke unke husn ka,
Bitadi zindagi umke dehleez pe,
Na gilah na shikwa koi rahega hamein,
Sirf ek baar uthta hua dekh le...
......................woh hamare janaaze ko.

Bekas zindagi hai ye jo,
Yoon parda karke baithi hai,
Na usse rukhsat le sakte hain,
Na usse shikwa kar sakte hain.

Yeh ishq bhi cheez kya ajeeb hai,
Kabhi woh dur kabhi woh kareeb hai,
Ek aag ka dariya hai aur doob ke jaana hai,
Suna hai aashiqon ki yehi taqdeer hai......


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Sunday, September 09, 2007

Chak De - India Ka Jazbah!!

- Maverick


Have you ever played in a team? Not our usual evening endeavors where we played for fun and mostly for time pass, but for something, which may range from an important bet to playing for your college to playing for your country. However different the level at which you are playing is, there is one thing that is common to all. That thing is a feeling, a feeling that you belong somewhere, that you are a part of something, something which you have worked had day and night at building together with others with the same feeling that’s inside of you. That thing is a sense of pride, for you team, for your city or for your country that you share with other members of the team. That feeling is the knowledge, the knowledge about the weaknesses and strengths of the team and the other team members and the knowledge that it would be possible only when everybody supports each other. The feeling is a faith, a faith you put in yourself, your coach, a faith in your team, which makes you cheer them out so loud that your throat grows hoarse. That feeling is an adrenaline rush, which makes you give it all you got. The feeling that puts you on the ninth cloud when you win and the feeling that you get when u lose but you don’t grieve that much and you still have enough team spirit left to congratulate the opposite side.

It has been a long time since I felt that and it felt great to feel that once more.

It all started when my friend forced me to come to the movie – “Chak de”. To be frank, I am an avid movie buff, but the current stature and the quality of Hindi movies is not according to my “standards”. And since this one was based on a sports theme, I was a bit more skeptic than usual. But I went, just to humor my friend and ‘cause I hadn’t enjoyed my weekend in a long time.

As for as the movie goes let me tell you the story, even though is simplistic enough for being based on a sport, is not what makes it good. What makes it good are some things which you start feeling 10 minutes into the movie and lasts till the interval, things which the movie portrays best. Anybody who has ever played for a team would understand what I’m talking about and which is why I told my friend that I am going to write a post about the movie rite after the first half (He was surprised and told me at least to wait till the end of the movie).

First is the feeling that I described above, how a team is made of different individualities and still is a single entity.


Second is something which I want to point out to some people who say they are fans, fire crackers and rejoice when the team wins and still when the team loses act as if it has disgraced the country or something, or when a player hasn’t played as expected or loses on the verge of winning say that the play had been fixed and insult that player. Yes, based on the player’s skill, he could have made it, the team could’ve won, and fans have every right to expect the team or the player to do well but if it loses don’t mean that it hasn’t given all it got. Trust me, when a player (team) gets on the field, the only thing in his heart is to give it all he got, and the feeling is so strong you can see it in his eyes. You can see his love for the game and the country when he fights to stay on the team. When you get right down to it, the probability of winning to losing is always 50-50.

Third is how sometimes religion gets in the way, no wait its how people bring religion in the way. I wouldn’t have told this if I hadn’t experienced it. People have asked questions, as a result of me having a muslim name, like “When did you come here from Pakistan (Pakistan se kab aaya?)”, feels like breaking their nose right then and there and remind them that once Pakistan was a part of India which existed long before Pakistan was formed. People should understand, however casual these questions are they hurt the patriotism that we have. I personally don’t believe in any religion and when people ask I say first I’m an Indian. As the character (girl from Manipur) rightly says “How would you feel if you were treated as a guest in your own country?” (aapko kaisa lagega agar apne hi desh mein mehman banaye gaye ho?).


Fourth is how there still exists male dominance in not only sports but other areas too. In these cases I would like only to say that times are changing or rather have changed a long time back. People should change too. As for what women can do, I will not tell anything, the scene from Mc Donald’s and the second half of the movie says it all.

Its for all these points that the movie is good. It’s a must watch to any person who has ever played in a team and to anyone who is an Indian. Even though the movie bears similarities to other movies, it’s the Indian charm that make is different.


This post is outside my usual style of writing, but once you read it you will understand why it fits under the given title and has the full right to belong to this blog.




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Thursday, August 16, 2007

Friend!!

- Maverick


It was dark, when I woke up.
I was alone and could see nothing, feel nothing.
And I realized, I was surrounded,
Surrounded by the Darkness of absence,
The absence of Words,
Words that give you Hope,
Hope that builds your Strength,
Strength to believe in yourself,
A Belief that even you can Dream,
Dreams that make your Life,
A Lifetime that gives you Memories,
Memories that make you Smile,
Smile that gives you peace.

Then it felt warm inside,
I looked down and saw,
I saw a light shining inside of me,
I wasnt afraid, there was no need to,
Who are you - I asked,
I am you, a part of you,
I've always been, I will always be,
In your heart, by your side,
Looking over your shoulder,
Showing you the correct way,
Holding your hand when you are alone,
Listening when you want to talk,
Comforting you when you want to cry,
Lending you my strength,
Holding your fears inside of me,
For all eternity, unconditionally,
After all, I am your friend. - It said.

It glowed with all the brightness,
Its rays breaking through the darkness,
And then the darkness disappeared,
I could see the world around me once more,
I could smile once more,
I could dream once more,
And I stretched my hand, towards my future,
Knowing that I will never be alone,
Knowing that someone somewhere believes in me!!




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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Never Say GoodBye!!!

Crassula ovata a.k.a Jade Plant a.k.a Friendship Tree


There isn't much I haven't shared

With you along the road
And through it all there'd always be
Tomorrow's episode
Suddenly that isn't true
There's another avenue
Beckoning the great divide
Ask no questions, take no side
Who's to say who's right or wrong
Whose course is braver run
Still we are, have always been
Will ever be as one

What is done has been done for the best
Though the mist in my eyes might suggest
Just a little confusion about what I'll lose
But if I started over I know I would choose
The same joy the same sadness each step of the way
That fought me and tought me that friends never say
Never say goodbye......

- Elton John

A tribute to all my friends, who are here, friends who are leaving and friends who left but are still there. I don't have the words to say, so I have taken the help of one of the best writers, Elton John.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Alone..

- Maverick.



Walking into the wind,
I feel the cold all around..
I look here, I look there,
And I look everywhere..
I am afraid, when I see that,
I am alone, all alone..

Driving into the nite,
I see the road twist and turn..
And I wonder where it goes,
Where it will take me..
And I am afraid, when it ends,
I will be alone, all alone..

I stare at the sky, I think of the future,
And I wonder, what is to become of me..
I know, Sometimes its just aint so simple,
But I dont wanna go down,Without causing a ripple..
I dont want to be all alone,
I just wanna be remembered.


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Sunday, April 29, 2007

I Dont Know How...

- Maverick


Something, I want to say to you,
But I don't know how.
Will you please forgive me,
if I say it to you,
Forever it will be with me, if not now.

Some Times, that we shared,
When we danced in the sand,
when we walked hand in hand,
When we caused each other pain,
when we held each other in the rain,

I want to tell you,
In my body and in my mind,
all my life, forever they will remain,
But I don't know how.

Will you please forgive me,
If I say it to you
Forever it will be with me, if not now.

Somewhere in my heart,
How I feel just let me show,
Hear me out before you go.
The times we spent together,
All the highs and even the low.

I want to tell you,
So far, but close to my heart,
you will be and always remain so,
But I don't know how.

Will you please forgive me,
If I say it to you
Forever it will be with me, if not now.



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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Because of You!!

- Maverick



It was a magnificent day,
When Our paths had crossed..
And the moon shone so bright
When the day had passed..
Even the quiet night seemed so heavenly,
just Because of you.

I thought it was fate,
When you said goodbye..
You could've stayed,
But you didn't even try..
It just so hard to forget you,
Without you, a day didn't get by.
It wasn't easy, because of you.

I live in the past, in the memories,
I am lost all the time..
Every night i look up to the sky,
The stars don't seem to shine..
I wish i could say something,
To make you mine..
But even simple words,
Don't seem to rhyme..
And Now my dreams are empty,
Because of you.

I feel empty, Because of you.
I feel alone, Because of you.
Because of you.


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If You Leave

- Nada Surf

If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday

If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday

day, day, day

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday




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