Life!!

Yeh Zindagi bhi kitni Ajeeb Hai..
Kabhi khushi deti hai to kabhi gam,
Chalte rehte hain Hum kiski talash mein?..
Kabhi saath mein kisike, to kabhi akele hum!

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How did I Celebrate my New Year!!

I always wondered what is the best way to celebrate the coming of a "New Year" and I never got a definite answer. I have yet to actually celebrate the coming of a new year. Usually I used to watch TV watching the world around partying all night like crazy, counting down to the last second of the passing year and shouting their hearts out as clock strikes 12. Sadly my cable was out this week and I was deprived of my yearly tradition.

But I think this was my best last day of the year yet. Why? Because the events of the day couldn't have been any better for me! I woke up at 10:30, and after the usual morning routine reached office at about 12 (yeah, I know). My team was already there celebrating by playing a game of counter-strike. I joined in and we altogether enjoyed brutally shooting each other in the head for about 2 hours, after which it was time for lunch.
Lunch was a bit mellow with chitchat over office food about what we did over the weekend and how and if we had made any plans for the night. After lunch we continued with the game for about another 2 hours(and you think we actually worked, :D).

Finally something I had been waiting for about two weeks. Two of my best friends who had gone to the US were visiting and had come to meet. So I immediately left the game and went down to our local snacks restaurant for an evening of getting updated on whats been going on in everybody's life, teasing each other on various topics, serious discussions on the future and its prospects. Time flew, literally. We talked for about four and half hours, after which I went back to my office, and not so surprisingly found it empty. It was 3 hours till midnight. So I started going through my huge collection of pictures to actually see what amount of fun I had in the last year. I found lots of friends, lots of creations, and lots of puzzles we used to play with. It brought back all the nostalgic moments. I began uploading all the photos and it took me almost an hour.

Finally I went home. My brother had just come back from bombay, so we decided we would check out the night life on the last day and celebrate my brothers last day as a bachelor. So we took the car, with my brother driving at full speed over the flyovers, overtaking almost everybody. When we reached the happening places, we just cruised through watching all the glitter and noise. My brother got tired and we raced back home and we were back 15 mins before midnight. On the way we stopped at Mc Donalds for a midnight snack, and i took just a plain vanilla cone.

Back home still eating the cone, I messaged everybody wishing them a new year, tried to call a close friend of mine, whose mobile was sadly switched off. It was almost midnight and it all came down to standing in my balcony eating vanilla ice-cream hearing the sounds of the new year arriving with booms and bangs.

10 mins later I was fast asleep. Nice way to celebrate the new years, dont u think?


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Wishing you a Convoluting in terms of happiness, Randomised in terms of surprises, Filtering in terms of sorrows, and Compunding in terms of prosperity and a very New as in never before experienced New Year!


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Who Am I?

Maverick means independent in thought and action(more on the rebellious side though..), and thus i think of myself as different from everybody. I am unique, and i think everybody is unique in their own terms, but it does not end there. Life is a paradox, always ends in contradiction. So it wouldn't be a total lie when i say people are unique and yet similar to others.

People are not born alone, they are born into a society. What they inherit is a cumulative effect of the years they spend with their family, their friends. What you have is what you inherit from others, how you use them is what makes you unique. After all, it is our choices, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.

But then its not good to forget where you got those abilities. I am always envious of others even the best of my friends, because you always find some admirable qualities which I want in me. And thus I am an anamoly made from others with something of my own, the only thing i claim as my own is that i am an observer, an eternal student.

I have compiled a list of friends that make me. Those who know me try to find themselves, those who think they are not on the list, it means I still haven't found the right word to describe what i have learned from guys and i apologize for that.Trust me I will update it as soon as possible. And guys don't mind :). So here goes.

1. The down to earth debugger.
2. The one with happy thoughts.
3. The smooth talker.
4. The planned one who people think is lucky.
5. The silent one.
6. The graceful dancer.
7. The happy go lucky but serious.
8. The strong one who is working towards a purpose.
9. The outgoing one.
10.The stylish, who is as confused as i am, probably.
11.The mind your own business one.
12.The one with the business mind.
13.The go to guy (in my line of work).
14.The one that never gives up, never outspoken.
15.The fragile but diligent one.
16.The one who likes the moon.
17.The new kid.

I still have to learn from the last four.

If you think you have learned something from me, i am glad, i could be of use.



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Chak De - India Ka Jazbah!!

- Maverick

Have you ever played in a team? Not our usual evening endeavors where we played for fun and mostly for time pass, but for something, which may range from an important bet to playing for your college to playing for your country. However different the level at which you are playing is, there is one thing that is common to all. That thing is a feeling, a feeling that you belong somewhere, that you are a part of something, something which you have worked had day and night at building together with others with the same feeling that’s inside of you. That thing is a sense of pride, for you team, for your city or for your country that you share with other members of the team. That feeling is the knowledge, the knowledge about the weaknesses and strengths of the team and the other team members and the knowledge that it would be possible only when everybody supports each other. The feeling is a faith, a faith you put in yourself, your coach, a faith in your team, which makes you cheer them out so loud that your throat grows hoarse. That feeling is an adrenaline rush, which makes you give it all you got. The feeling that puts you on the ninth cloud when you win and the feeling that you get when u lose but you don’t grieve that much and you still have enough team spirit left to congratulate the opposite side.

It has been a long time since I felt that and it felt great to feel that once more.

It all started when my friend forced me to come to the movie – “Chak de”. To be frank, I am an avid movie buff, but the current stature and the quality of Hindi movies is not according to my “standards”. And since this one was based on a sports theme, I was a bit more skeptic than usual. But I went, just to humor my friend and ‘cause I hadn’t enjoyed my weekend in a long time.

As for as the movie goes let me tell you the story, even though is simplistic enough for being based on a sport, is not what makes it good. What makes it good are some things which you start feeling 10 minutes into the movie and lasts till the interval, things which the movie portrays best. Anybody who has ever played for a team would understand what I’m talking about and which is why I told my friend that I am going to write a post about the movie rite after the first half (He was surprised and told me at least to wait till the end of the movie).

First is the feeling that I described above, how a team is made of different individualities and still is a single entity.

Second is something which I want to point out to some people who say they are fans, fire crackers and rejoice when the team wins and still when the team loses act as if it has disgraced the country or something, or when a player hasn’t played as expected or loses on the verge of winning say that the play had been fixed and insult that player. Yes, based on the player’s skill, he could have made it, the team could’ve won, and fans have every right to expect the team or the player to do well but if it loses don’t mean that it hasn’t given all it got. Trust me, when a player (team) gets on the field, the only thing in his heart is to give it all he got, and the feeling is so strong you can see it in his eyes. You can see his love for the game and the country when he fights to stay on the team. When you get right down to it, the probability of winning to losing is always 50-50.

Third is how sometimes religion gets in the way, no wait its how people bring religion in the way. I wouldn’t have told this if I hadn’t experienced it. People have asked questions, as a result of me having a muslim name, like “When did you come here from Pakistan (Pakistan se kab aaya?)”, feels like breaking their nose right then and there and remind them that once Pakistan was a part of India which existed long before Pakistan was formed. People should understand, however casual these questions are they hurt the patriotism that we have. I personally don’t believe in any religion and when people ask I say first I’m an Indian. As the character (girl from Manipur) rightly says “How would you feel if you were treated as a guest in your own country?” (aapko kaisa lagega agar apne hi desh mein mehman banaye gaye ho?).

Fourth is how there still exists male dominance in not only sports but other areas too. In these cases I would like only to say that times are changing or rather have changed a long time back. People should change too. As for what women can do, I will not tell anything, the scene from Mc Donald’s and the second half of the movie says it all.

Its for all these points that the movie is good. It’s a must watch to any person who has ever played in a team and to anyone who is an Indian. Even though the movie bears similarities to other movies, it’s the Indian charm that make is different.

This post is outside my usual style of writing, but once you read it you will understand why it fits under the given title and has the full right to belong to this blog.

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Alone..

- Maverick.

Walking into the wind,
I feel the cold all around..
I look here, I look there,
And I look everywhere..
I am afraid, when I see that,
I am alone, all alone..

Driving into the nite,
I see the road twist and turn..
And I wonder where it goes,
Where it will take me..
And I am afraid, when it ends,
I will be alone, all alone..

I stare at the sky, I think of the future,
And I wonder, what is to become of me..
I know, Sometimes its just aint so simple,
But I dont wanna go down,Without causing a ripple..
I dont want to be all alone,
I just wanna be remembered.


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Living in a dream.....

I've been living in a dream,
and though I've realized it now...
I cannot wake up from it,
Rather I do not want to.

I've been clutching on to this false hope,
and though I've realized it now...
I cannot let it go,
Rather I do not want to.

The purpose given to me isn't real,
and though I've realized it now...
I cannot stop doing it,
Rather I do not want to.

My life is just a figment of imagination,
and though I've realized it now...
I cannot stop believing it to be real,
Rather I do not want to.

Sometimes you've to believe in something...
not because it's right or wrong,
but because you want to.

I've been living in a dream,
and though I've realized it now...
I cannot wake up from it,
Rather I do not want to.

This poem is for others to decipher, 'cause it was an inspiration and I do not know it's meaning myself..

Undecided Destiny.....

You can only make a simple wish,
To the Shooting star,bright and shiny,
But wishes don't change,
Your Undecided Destiny.

You can only pray for an angel,
To show u the one path, among many,
But Even Angel's can't tell you,
Your undecided Destiny.

You can only look for signs,
To tell you what's right and why,
But signs can't fortell,
Your undecided Destiny.

Only you can choose that path,
Only you can break through Life's irony,
You are the only one who can decide,
Your undecided Destiny.

The Upside of Anger....

One of my favourite quotes, from the movie of the same name...

Anger and resentment can stop you in your tracks.
It needs nothing to burn but the air and the life that it swallows and smothers.
It's real, though - the fury, even when it isn't.
It can change you... turn you... mold you and shape you into something you're not.
The only upside to anger, then... is the person you become.
Hopefully someone that wakes up one day and realizes they're not afraid to take the journey, someone that knows that the truth is, at best, a partially told story.
That anger, like growth, comes in spurts and fits,
and in its wake, leaves a new chance at acceptance,
and the promise of calm

Destiny!!!

What is Destiny? Is it something
which should be found by u..
or is it something which will find u

Is something
already written for u
Or r u responsible for something u do..

Are the choices already made
and what we have to do is realise them
what happens next
are just the consequences of these realizations,

How do we know
the choice that we should make
how do we know
If that is what we are supposed to do

Sometimes it may be very obvious
Sometimes you may make the rite choice
Even without knowing
For the fear of doing it wrong
Sometimes u may not do anything

What u do might affect u now
or in the future might its effect be revealed
As someone said it rite
A man should do what he should
until his destiny is revealed